2 posts tagged “shit”

So yeah today I hopped on the bus so I could go BACK to the mall to return the applications I filled out from last time and I even picked up another one...And guess who was at the mall. GUESS! My fuckin roommate with her "posse" or what the fuck ever. Seriously? Can I ever get away from them and their annoying shit? Of course I managed to go unnoticed (I think) and I just kinda scanned the stores before I went in. Anyway they all got high yesterday and fucking took my ketchup outta my fridge and didnt return it...fuckin munchies. And yeah its only ketchup but thats a big something when YOU pay for it and you dont have but 45 fuckin dollars to your fuckin name. Imma get my shit back or the money to pay for it at least. Fuckin stoners. I wish I had my own apartment. And a job. Im seriously praying that SOMEONE ANYONE calls me in for an interview. Because good god I am BROKE and I just smoked my last cigarette a few mins ago. Which just gives me another reason to freak out. I think my mom is sending me a care package though and she usually sends food so that's one less thing to worry about and also thank god my mother hasnt given up on me and still loves me enough to send me shit. 

First and foremost I would like to say that I spelled "life" like that on purpose...it goe with the French accent that I have no clue about. Now! Have you ever felt like you were living the wrong life(lief). Like you're missing out on things you're destined to be a part of but you just cant get your foot in the door or some crap like that? I got to college one month ago and in this month I think Ive cried more than ever and over what? My stupid fucking life. And you know my life really isnt that fucked up. It's me that's fucked up! It's my stupid freakin brain...I honestly think that there is something wrong with me. But then I feel like there couldnt be because Im admitting to it right? Crazy unbalanced people never know that they're crazy unbalanced right? Or is that just the case for the psychopaths? Anyway, Ive been thinking lately and I cant figure out why Ive been like this for the past month or so. Im not home-sick that's for damn sure. And now that I think about it, this started this summer while I was still AT HOME. Or "home" really cos Ive never really considered that my home. I dont know. And yes people call me a stupid whiny bitch but yo I need to vent so just let me and turn the other way. As a matter of fact don't read this. I know it's super late to be saying that but hey it is now the twenty-first century and you should be able to write yourself a sticky note, go back in time, and give yourself the message not to read this. Go ahead. Do it. What are you waiting for it's your time. Anyway Im just hoping that Im able to find a job and fulfill a few other personal goals I have set for myself and maybe, just maybe, shit will start looking up. And I dont mean that literally because how freaky would that be if turds started looking at shit. It'd be creepy enough with eyes but if it actually had the ability to focus on junk...yeah...Im done now. But that's ok because you never read this :D