8 posts tagged “money”

I got my cigarette holder! And even better, it came with a free cleaning kit and this sweetener stuff. Which is great because uh, free stuff? Always a plus. Anyway, today was my interview, or rather first part of the interview...it was a group interview which was kind of annoying but I feel like I smashed those little high school bitches that were with me.  No offense to anyone who is in high school still of course...if you were competing for my possible job then you...be offended. Anyway, I feel like I did a pretty good job and now Im just waiting for a callback. Like an actress or some shit right? Oh no...just retail. Ha. Anyway, I reeeeally want to go try out my new holder and I also reeeally want to try out my cigarette holder. But it's cold out and I don't want to go to far. But then there are always people around the outside of the dorm...the other smokers and such and I don't like smoking around people. Beh, I only have one class tomorrow I think I'll just wait until then. Even though I REEEAALLY want one. But that's ok...because I can control myself. I control it. It does not control me. OH! And on the same website I got my holder from they have those Lucienne Alto lighters that are like...really slim and sleek and all that and I WANT ONE! Anyway I guess I'll just stick to my cheap see through purple one I got at Rite-Aid. Hem. Once I get the job (AND I WILL MOTHER FUCKERS!) I will be able to afford it :D heh heh heh

So today I had to wake up EXTREMELY early...for a Saturday anyway...so that I could go help out with a carnival fund raiser my school put on. There were clowns...my classmates...as clowns. PRICELESS! I braided hair with string and beads and all that good stuff. And I did well considering how Im not really a "children person" and there was really only one of them who was a total brat. But mostly we had fun. Which is a major improvement considering the mood Ive been in the past few days...well...yeah. Anyway I feel better because I finally managed to get enough money so I could buy some friggin smokes. And then I smoked two within like...twenty minutes. I should really slow down seeing how they seem to run out so fast now lol. Anyway I noticed a song on a commercial that I though was pretty fuckin sweet and so I decided to do a little research. First of all here's the commercial Im sure some of you have already seen and heard it:

Chevy Traverse Shoes Commercial

My instructor pulled me aside after class and asked me if I was ok. Seriously...I'm usually good at hiding when stuff is crap but I guess today I was just out of it because after class I came home and just...slept.  For about three hours mind you. I dont know what's going on but I kinda feel like Im spiraling. And I really hope I get this job because I feel like right now it's the only thing that's going to reverse the uh...spiral. So the finale of Project Runway is today (yes Im one of those) And Im just saying...Im nervous like it's me or some shit. Why does tv do that huh? Well now I have to do a bunch of stuff because that's just how today worked out I guess...I hope things pick up I really do because well...I just dont know if I can do this that much longer. Im really trying not to break but...I don't know. Today I kept telling myself: 'You are not alone, you are independent and you don't need a million people to make you happy' So I guess...that's going to be my mantra in my head from now on because I think it kinda worked and made me feel a little better. I already know that if I get a job it'll do me good. ALOTTA good. I'll have money, I'll be doing something that's worth something. Im one of those people who need to work you know? I can't explain it I just...I feel so much better about myself when I have a job. I don't know if it makes any sense but that's how I am. Kay people bye and stuff.

Guess who has a fuckin interview with The Gap on Monday...THAT WOULD BE ME BITCHES!!!! Yeah! Guess who also just lied to their drawing instructor in an email saying she has a doctors appointment and cant make it to the second half of classes (so she can really go to a job interview) ME AGAIN! Hhahahaha Im soooo happy! Ive never even seriously shopped at The Gap though...too expensive lol. But I dont care cos I can take their money and buy shit other places! YAY MONEY!!! Now all I have to do is nail this freakin interview. And hey who knows maybe I'll get some other calls since the freakin Gap considered me...Maybe I'll get some calls from places I can actually use the discount haha. So this is me being happy that I have something to tell my grandma when I call her today...it's her birthday. I LUV MY GANDMOTHER!!! OK sorry that was just my early excitement showing. Extra. YESSS! Kbye! 

So yeah today I hopped on the bus so I could go BACK to the mall to return the applications I filled out from last time and I even picked up another one...And guess who was at the mall. GUESS! My fuckin roommate with her "posse" or what the fuck ever. Seriously? Can I ever get away from them and their annoying shit? Of course I managed to go unnoticed (I think) and I just kinda scanned the stores before I went in. Anyway they all got high yesterday and fucking took my ketchup outta my fridge and didnt return it...fuckin munchies. And yeah its only ketchup but thats a big something when YOU pay for it and you dont have but 45 fuckin dollars to your fuckin name. Imma get my shit back or the money to pay for it at least. Fuckin stoners. I wish I had my own apartment. And a job. Im seriously praying that SOMEONE ANYONE calls me in for an interview. Because good god I am BROKE and I just smoked my last cigarette a few mins ago. Which just gives me another reason to freak out. I think my mom is sending me a care package though and she usually sends food so that's one less thing to worry about and also thank god my mother hasnt given up on me and still loves me enough to send me shit. 

I swear I think I have the mind of a fucking adolescent boy. Seriously I dont think it's normal to think about sex or things related to sex or things that arent even related to sex but somehow I end up thinking about sex as much as I do. And the thing is Ive always been this way! What the hell...And Im alone at the moment :( Not even a bitch on the side to push around. Bah. Love sucks. Well for me it does anyway. I went to the mall yesterday and I applied at a bunch of places and got applications from even more. Which means I have to go back to return them. Which would give me another reason to shop if I had any money so it looks like it'll be strictly business this time. On the bright side I have a definite paycheck (that's prob like ten bucks) from my work study that should be here in two weeks. But seriously that's still TWO WEEKS. Argh. I have to go back to class...

The Blue Girl (Firebird)

Charles de Lint

So...I don't have class until one...which means I have to go to the bank and run errands beforehand. I cant even sleep in. Oh the life of a responsible adult...HA! ME RESPONSIBLE! Lol yeah right Im going to go set up some shit at the bank so I can get some money to buy smokes and tampons. Yeah real reponsible...I should get an award. No really I want an award. Twould be awesome. I think Im allergic to morning btw.