3 posts tagged “job”

I got my cigarette holder! And even better, it came with a free cleaning kit and this sweetener stuff. Which is great because uh, free stuff? Always a plus. Anyway, today was my interview, or rather first part of the interview...it was a group interview which was kind of annoying but I feel like I smashed those little high school bitches that were with me.  No offense to anyone who is in high school still of course...if you were competing for my possible job then you...be offended. Anyway, I feel like I did a pretty good job and now Im just waiting for a callback. Like an actress or some shit right? Oh no...just retail. Ha. Anyway, I reeeeally want to go try out my new holder and I also reeeally want to try out my cigarette holder. But it's cold out and I don't want to go to far. But then there are always people around the outside of the dorm...the other smokers and such and I don't like smoking around people. Beh, I only have one class tomorrow I think I'll just wait until then. Even though I REEEAALLY want one. But that's ok...because I can control myself. I control it. It does not control me. OH! And on the same website I got my holder from they have those Lucienne Alto lighters that are like...really slim and sleek and all that and I WANT ONE! Anyway I guess I'll just stick to my cheap see through purple one I got at Rite-Aid. Hem. Once I get the job (AND I WILL MOTHER FUCKERS!) I will be able to afford it :D heh heh heh

My instructor pulled me aside after class and asked me if I was ok. Seriously...I'm usually good at hiding when stuff is crap but I guess today I was just out of it because after class I came home and just...slept.  For about three hours mind you. I dont know what's going on but I kinda feel like Im spiraling. And I really hope I get this job because I feel like right now it's the only thing that's going to reverse the uh...spiral. So the finale of Project Runway is today (yes Im one of those) And Im just saying...Im nervous like it's me or some shit. Why does tv do that huh? Well now I have to do a bunch of stuff because that's just how today worked out I guess...I hope things pick up I really do because well...I just dont know if I can do this that much longer. Im really trying not to break but...I don't know. Today I kept telling myself: 'You are not alone, you are independent and you don't need a million people to make you happy' So I guess...that's going to be my mantra in my head from now on because I think it kinda worked and made me feel a little better. I already know that if I get a job it'll do me good. ALOTTA good. I'll have money, I'll be doing something that's worth something. Im one of those people who need to work you know? I can't explain it I just...I feel so much better about myself when I have a job. I don't know if it makes any sense but that's how I am. Kay people bye and stuff.

Guess who has a fuckin interview with The Gap on Monday...THAT WOULD BE ME BITCHES!!!! Yeah! Guess who also just lied to their drawing instructor in an email saying she has a doctors appointment and cant make it to the second half of classes (so she can really go to a job interview) ME AGAIN! Hhahahaha Im soooo happy! Ive never even seriously shopped at The Gap though...too expensive lol. But I dont care cos I can take their money and buy shit other places! YAY MONEY!!! Now all I have to do is nail this freakin interview. And hey who knows maybe I'll get some other calls since the freakin Gap considered me...Maybe I'll get some calls from places I can actually use the discount haha. So this is me being happy that I have something to tell my grandma when I call her today...it's her birthday. I LUV MY GANDMOTHER!!! OK sorry that was just my early excitement showing. Extra. YESSS! Kbye!